Change Of Plans

Growing up I wasn't the nurturing type.  Even though children and babies were very attractive to me I didn't enjoy their company. I told myself that I will never have children or get married that I'll be a rich workaholic that will spend her days making her self a well known name. I would spend my days reading Nylon magazine fantasizing about working in the brutal fashion industry. But now my plans changed. Now the more I think about that goal the more I know how sad and depressed I would be. I love fashion I  really do and I still wanna have a place in the fashion industry but I also want to have a family.  I don't believe that every woman needs to step back in the 50's and feel obligated to be a perfect housewife, but the image  appeals to me. It maybe since I never had a strong loving family, and I always wish I had those super involved parents. Whatever the reason is I really want to have children. I find myself thinking about motherhood almost every day now. I just wanna give someone the life I never had. As far as career path I decided that i will become a special needs teacher and also have a minor in fashion merchandising and have my own clothing store.